Marius And Pandora
Marius and Pandora... Read about Pandora travelling around trying to find Marius (she went to Eudoxia) really touches my heart. Hope they would meet soon. Oh, black and gold is getting better and better, can't wait to finish everything off. But the very moment of finishing the last word of the book will be a strange one. The accomplishment and happiness of finishing a good book AS WELL AS the grief and disappointment of losing one because reading it the second time won't bring about the excitement of reading it first time. Contradiction! Yeah, you know life is always one...

Spending A Lot
For the past one or two weeks, I have been spending too much... Guess it has amounted to a few hundred bucks. The ear phones, final fantasy X2 dvd, food (yes! food) and Mary Star Of The Sea (for today)... and of course, for the rest of my money, I've got not a single damn idea where they have gone to. Sigh, maybe having so many off days ain't such a good idea after all. Oh, I know that's an poor excuse... honestly.

Mary Star Of The Sea
Declarations of faith.

Thoughts
Sometimes I juz hope I could sit down quietly somewhere and study all the people who walk past me. The way they walk, the way they move, the face they wore... everything. Where could the each and everyone of them have lived? What had all these strangers went through? Are they happy with their life or are they just damn disgusted with it? What would it be like if I had known these people? Somehow... somehow I found out by doing and wondering about all this, I could just lift my spirit up... especially when I'm feeling down. I know somebody somewhere will think I'm wasting my time away by doing all this but... I know there will be somebody out there who understand and share what I feel.

???
Don't feel like writing too much today, only craving to read more. I bet something's wrong with me today again... Period? If only anybody could read my stupid mind...

Bought A Ear Phone
Yeah, bought a sony ear phone for some 30 bucks. Coz there ain't no cure for my previous headphone anymore.

Anger Is A Weakness
Man! Ain't I just love this line?

Crippled
Something bad happened! Something real bad happened. It's not about life... it's not about me... it's about my discman! Fuck! Guess it's the best word I could use to describe my feelings now. Some may see it as a minor problem but to me... you see, I just can't live without my dicsman when I'm outside. I need music. I hate to be alone and quiet (well, though i do enjoy being alone with rock music). My discman had a fall. Yeah, yeah, I managed to fix it, no problem but... but... it's crippled (don't ask me what makes a crippled discman, ok ). That's not all. Hope it was. My headphone was crippled too. Damn! Only one of the phone has output, the other is purely "dead". Damn sad... hey, I bought the sony headphone for 50 bucks. Sigh... what's next? Yeah, right, perfect, now this damn heart of mine is crippled too.

Belldandy



Ah... My Goddess...

Mileage Update!!!
Current Mileage = 4350km (2650km more to go)
That's times that I almost felt like giving everything up...

Blood And Gold
Bought a book by Anne Rice before I booked in yesterday. I had to get something to read. I had to unstress myself from the long hours of driving everyday. So I went down to the nearest popular and headed straight to find her books. Damn popular! I could only find myself a limited number of her books. I remember seeing "Interview With A Vampire", "Maverick" (guess this does not belong to the vampire chronicles) and of course the book I bought "Blood And Gold". That's all, even though I saw some erotica by her too (can't remember the title). Hmm... everybody is giving me the "Hey, it's so unlike you." or "Are you sure?" look when I was reading my new book in camp. Haha... but true enough, I'm not the type who would read "thick books with small words" and be seen with my head stucked inside a load of papers. Throughout my entire life, I only managed to complete one book and it's not that thick too (I figured it's better that I don't mention the page number). It's called "Outsiders", and it's a literature book too! Ha, but I do love the book a lot. It's about the life of greasers, the lower class, and I have read it a few times already. Haha... miracle, miracle.

Had A Good Dream
I had a very good dream last night. I can't really remember much about the dream but I sure feel good (can't use any other word to describe) when I woke up. It was about me and someone else. I just can't remember who that someone else was but had that feeling of "an very old friend coming back" in her. Hmmm... who could it be?

Sorry Henry
As mentioned below, I'm damn tired! So tomorrow when u gave me a morning call, don't be surprised to hear me say "Hey. I don't think I can make it this time." We'll see...

Mileage
4218km (2782km more to go)
I'm dead beat. Drive, drive, drive and drive. It's the type of feeling u get "I know i'll knock off the moment I lay down and close my eyes." The afternoon shift is the worse. The damn jeep is open and I will get all the sunlight!

Zwan - Mary Star Of The Sea
My my my!!! It's the 2nd generation of The Smashing Pumpkins. A new band lead by Billy Corgan! Damn, I really must try to control over this one and not spend too much money. But... watched the mtv of "Honestly" on the MTV channel, a great song with Billy Cogan singing "I feel love, honestly" and a gal (in the band too) playing one of the guitars. Hmmm, I must say it's really cool.

Alone At Home Again
My mom's going out soon and I'll be left alone...

Can't Put Image Up
Damn... The pics I wanted to put up is in my geocities account and it juz ain't working. Too bad, I think geocities block image links to other server.

Drive
I'm going back in again. Sigh, it's really fast. And I'll be back to drive tml again. Morning starts, night time ends. Gotta meet the 7000km mark before time runs out. About 3000km more to go... (Thank god I got the chance the drive the past 2 yrs so I got a place in the sun now.) All these for my civilian license. Wish me luck, pal, I need it.